I'm a problem solver by nature. So after feeding the horses quickly, I came back inside the house to do the work I had scheduled for that morning and also to put up an add for help here at the farm. Well. My current helper saw the ad. (And please note that I mentioned to her the day before that I need to get the hours filled in case of bad news. And also keep in mind that she is the one that only wants to work two days a week.) So she sees my ISO and COMES AT ME that she felt like it was a dig at her. You know, while I'm in the barn doing her job. And having a small menty b about my future in general. By all means, come at me with your feelings.
Guys. I dunno. What is it with people just abusing me while I'm already struggling? I think this is a generational problem maybe? The twenty somethings seem to only want to do what they want when they want. Which like yes, don't we all? But as my dad taught me, everyone has to work. How else do you feed yourself and put a roof over your head? Meanwhile, not a ton of response to my iso. So I might have to find someplace to board for the winter I guess. I dunno. Lots to ponder there. So my confession for this section is that my stress level is high and my help is making it worse not better. Which seems counterproductive. (And also, would you all come at a boss like this? Am I way out of line here?)
My second confession is that I may or may not have resorted to retail therapy yesterday. And to add insult to injury my credit card thought it was fraud that I was spending not very much money at the outlet mall and declined me on a purchase. Thanks universe. How about you just let me find unhealthy ways to sooth my feelings?
So those are my confessions today. Anything you all need to get off your chest?
Posting an ad for the rest of the position that she doesn't want is not an attack. You would love to give her all the hours you need. She doesn't want them. If you found someone who could do all the days, would you cut her loose? possibly. But that would be on her for not fully accepting the position.
ReplyDeleteHang in there! This will pass.
I suppose in her defense I did post looking for someone for all five days. BUT I had also already told her that even if I found someone for five days I would still make hours available to her if she wanted them. It was just so perplexing and unnecessary aggravation.
DeleteBut thank you, you are right, eventually I'll be on the other side of all of this! I just hope it's sooner than later.
How dare you look for help ! The absolute gall of you.
ReplyDeleteAlso, I hope you’re okay.
Thank you! Fingers crossed.
DeleteBut also, right? Like you don't want to do the work, you don't get to be mad that I look for someone else.