Truthful Tuesday

Well friends, this week I'm going to admit to feeling uncertain. I showed you yesterday an odd photo of Rio's face. I also sent that photo to my vets, and they concur that he's likely having a relapse. Though not uncommon, it's disconcerting as he's still on the medication. Which means it's not working. He seems otherwise fairly healthy this time, as in, nothing on his face is paralyzed, and he's able to move around comfortably. But likely it will get worse. I'm waiting to hear from the Cornell vets about our next plan of attack. I know there are some other meds out there, so I'm assuming we'll switch to one of those and see what happens.
This new situation has actually made me feel very comfortable in my decision to keep Rio home with me, rather than send him off to live a life of retirement out in an open field somewhere. I think he needs to be close where he can be monitored carefully.
On the other hand, I am questioning my plans for Jamp for the remainder of the summer. My plan was to take him to VT for two shows in August. However, I feel like I need to stay close to Rio. I'm not sure how much longer I'll have with him, and I don't want to leave for 10 days in August not knowing what I'll return home to. On the third hand (or maybe a foot?), Jampy is 15 and not showing him much this summer is also somewhat wasteful for him. I guess maybe I'll look for some shows close to home, so I can try and do what's best for both of them. 
So that's my conflict for today. First world problems, I realize. For me, these horses are my family, and it's hard to know what's right sometimes.
I shall leave you with some adorable photos of the herd. (which kind of leads to an actual confession: I take obscene amounts of Rio photos every day.)